Today, I realized that I am the only one accountable for my choices for my life. I live the life I live because I CHOSE this. Everything in my life is in some way caused and created by something I chose or did. I take full responsibility and blame for everything, and I'm alright with that. I AM ALRIGHT WITH THAT. I know what ever I do, my past is always going to haunt me. But, thats my fault too. I chose to let those people into my life, I made the choices I did with them, I chose to trust when I shouldnt have and I chose to ignore my gut. And at this point in my life, I choose to keep the bad memories because they are a part of who I am and the choices I will make in my life in the future.

That said, I am a made person. Everything I have is a result of my own hard work. 100% on my own. I made the choice to pick myself back up after what happened happened, when it would have been a million times easier to give up and die. There was no one there to help me or for me to lean on, so I had to rely 100% on myself and it made me all the stronger. Yeah, it still pisses me off that everyone abandoned me when I needed them the most, but I'm grateful because it gave me the strength to stand on my own two feet and be completely independent of anyone else. I dont need anyone to take care of me. I can do that myself. I dont need anyone to buy me dinner, pay for my movie, I dont need anyone to do me any favors. And, I dont need to recount my story about what happened to me because I DONT NEED ANY FAVORS OR ANY PITY. I am where I am today because of what happened, and because of my own determination, and I dont need anyones sympathy or admiration. I'm fine on my own, and I take responsibility for all the good and bad in my life.

Everyone just needs to take responsibility for their own life, and let go (or dont), but thats your choice, so own up to it.